Picture day!!

Today was my baby’s first picture day at daycare! I was super excited but at the same I was kind of nervous since I don’t get to drop him off at daycare. Do you know what that means? My son rarely comes home with the clothes I picked out for him, instead, he comes home in daddy dressed me clothes. Not today, thankfully! I even had to make sure they took his pictures early in the morning because my son does not enjoy wearing button up shirts and takes them off any chance he gets! 
I’ll really excited to see the proofs for the photos, Im sure he came out perfect! Just look at these photos! 💙

Outfit Details 

As always my son is usually dressed in The Children’s Place from head to toe! 

Top: Oxford Blue Button Up

T-Shirt: Style Guru Short Sleeve

Shorts: Woven Chino Shorts in Mellow Aqua

Shoes: Garanimals Canvas Slip On Shoe in Black

I’m 100% a bargain shopper. I will do anything to get the best deals! That’s why I love The Children’s Place! Their deals are amazing, just click on the links and you can see for yourself!

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I deleted my social media apps.

So this morning I decided to delete all of my social media apps off my phone, not WordPress and Pinterest of course. I was thinking why do I even have this? I honestly don’t even need this, so why bother having it? This led me to more thinking. What is the point of it? Really? Nowadays social media is used as a mechanism to make other people think your life is better than it actually is. But why? Is it for reassurance? Is it to help your ego? I’m sure it’s used for this purpose in one form or another, whether it’s to impress someone or for pity.

I feel like people no longer live in the moment, they need to make sure they snap every single minute of a concert instead of taking it all in. They need to post when their toddler is fully potty trained or the fact that he’s in the hospital with pneumonia. Or the fact that they got a new house or a new car or even purse. I believe it’s okay to be proud of your accomplishments, I may or may not have posted about some new things I’ve gotten in the past, but that’s not to say that I was trying to impress anyone.

I apologize for getting distracted and steering away from the real reason I actually deleted my apps, keep in mind I did not delete the accounts so I still have access if I really want to. I did this more as a test to myself, I want to be able to go out and enjoy my life without having to show the world. I will say, I am the person that forgets to take pictures because I’m having a ton of fun and then regret that I didn’t, so it’s not like I’m in constant need of posting on social media. It’s more of a bad habit that I’m trying to get away from. I catch myself opening up Twitter or Instagram about 2 minutes after I’ve already scrolled through the entire feed only to see the exact same thing I saw 2 minutes ago. I don’t want that anymore. The honest reason I didn’t completely delete the accounts was because I do have old friends and family, even, that I’m not necessarily close to but I want to make sure they’re still okay. I also have a ton of photos and would love to keep all those memories in the correct order.

I wanted to delete my apps because I feel like it has caused me to become so self conscious of myself seeing all these photoshopped images of beautiful women. I had never been so self conscious of myself until recently. I can’t even take a picture of myself, that I feel good about, without using a filter. It’s actually quite amazing how much we depend on technology to alter our looks, whether it be a full blown photoshop job or just a Snapchat filter. It’s a false reality. I don’t want to feel like I have to post anything just because someone else is and I, especially, don’t want to care about what my friends are posting. I hurt my own feelings just scrolling through my newsfeeds and I’m pretty sure that I’m not the only one who feels that way. I just no longer want to depend on social media for reassurance about myself.

 

Who am I?

I am a Mexican-American woman. Flawed beyond belief. A dreamer. Someone with hopes that people are genuinely kind. I am not perfect nor do I claim to be. I am not superstitious yet I still make a wish at 11:11. Why? Because I am unique. 

My dark under eyes show that I’m determined. I am mistaken for a confident woman. It’s actually quite confusing. Anxiety gets the best of me, my thoughts are on constant repeat. I have a dark past most people won’t see the light of. I carry a sense of guilt for which I do not know. 

Contrary to what this may seem like, I’m a delight. I light up a room with my smile and charm. I am intelligent. I am supportive and genuinely happy for anyone I love. I am extraordinarily busy running after a toddler. He’s a beautiful spawn of our love. The love that is within me, the love that I express, is exuberant. It’s truly one of a kind. I marvel on the fact that I’m lucky, sometimes. I ponder on my existence and even more so on my future. 

I’m truly an odd being. 

Long time no blog

Hey everyone!  ♥♥

So I feel super guilty not having posted anything in over a year!! It’s crazy how life passes by so quickly. I went through a rough patch in my life last year, hence my last blog, but I feel better than ever now. I have been much happier and suddenly my life has started to slowly turn back around. It’s true. The link to a better life is happiness and positivity. I was always such a happy person always smiling and jolly, I’m finally starting to see the old me.

In the course of almost a year, I started working again. It’s such a great job, full time, full benefits, and my coworkers are awesome! My husband and I have moved into my moms house to help pay off old debt and ready our finances for a home loan! We are so excited because for the longest time we weren’t ready to say yes to such a big responsibility (which is quite ironic since we are married and have a child already). We have been working to rebuild our credit and rid ourselves of old debt. It’s so stressful trying to even think about buying a home. Do we want to build or buy pre-owned? What is our budget, what can we afford per month? Are we ready for all the responsibility that comes with owning our own home? Short answer, now, is yes.

We have decided we want to build our first home. The reason is, we don’t want the whole “this is my starter home” to turn into, “ugh we’ve been here for 5 years and we can’t yet build our so-called dream home.” I want to be completely happy with my first home and so does he. I want to look back 5-10 years down the road and say I still love my home. We also want to build so we know that everything that happens to this home is first time. WE know exactly what we do to our home and how we care for it. WE are the ones responsible for any maintenance job, big or small. The hardest thing about the home buying/building process is that there are so many options, do we want to buy a piece of land and build our own home on it or do we want to live in a subdivision where we are subject to only certain lots? It’s all bittersweet, really, though. 

I’m just so excited to start on this new chapter in our life and be able to share it with all of you! All I ask is be patient with me, I’ve gotten so used to not writing that I need to get back into a routine.

Thank you !!! You’ll be hearing from me very soon!

coping with depression

So I know I haven’t written anything in a few months and it’s because I was going through a rough patch in my life. I also apologize in advance for the lack of quality in my writing. I just need to express my feelings.

I’ve never been the type of person to get too overwhelmed over life’s bad happenings, but for some reason this time I was. I was consumed with all this negative energy and I always felt helpless. I would cry myself to sleep, I had insomnia, and I was depressed. I would think to myself, “what’s going on?” “what happened to the happy and cheerful person I used to be?” I was lost, I didn’t know where that person had gone. I couldn’t get myself up to go to the gym. I had no energy to go to school. I just wanted to lay in bed. No matter what I did or tried I couldn’t get myself out of this ‘rut’ my husband would call it.

No one ever thinks they will battle depression in their life because we as humans believe we are invisible. Let me tell you, we aren’t. We are all susceptible to any emotional disorder. I didn’t know how unhappy I was until I took a depression test online. I didn’t know what to believe because one can never believe what’s on the internet, you can google a cough then you’ll end up with lung cancer, it’s not a joke nor am I making fun. When I started reading the questions it was asking me I started realizing that I did have a problem. As I went through the questionnaire I cried and cried even more. I could no longer hold back the tears. So I googled some more and found some counselors that would be able to help me, I was terrified of calling and making an appointment for ‘depression’. I sent my sister a text, I wanted her opinion because I still had doubt and she had struggled from depression and anxiety. She told me I needed to make an appointment because she was worried for me.

I was so nervous to make the call. All I could think was, “what if someone I know works at the doctor’s office and I call and make an appointment for depression?”I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety.  I felt so ashamed because I could not get over this without the help of medication. No one would ever know because I was so good at holding up a front. I never expressed my feelings to anyone besides my husband but even then he didn’t seem to worry. If you would ask any of my friends and/or family members if I ever displayed a depressive behavior they would say no. I could laugh at jokes but feel nothing at the same time. My medication has helped me. I am back in the gym and feeling better.

It’s hard dealing with something that most people don’t or won’t understand. Just because they have never experienced it themselves they don’t believe you’re not okay. Just because you’re not always able to physically see it, doesn’t mean it’s not there. Depression is depression no matter how it’s displayed.

If you’re worried about your state of mind or feel like you have symptoms of depression, get help. I promise it’ll be worth it.

Dr. Seuss Themed 1st Birthday!

I have always been a fan of the great Dr. Seuss books. I loved how all the words would rhyme even though the words may not have been real words. 

Before my son was born I always planned I would read to him as much as I could. I read in a few articles that reading poems and/or rhyming words to your child would help them learn a lot faster and who else would be better at rhyming than Dr. Seuss. Anywho, fast forward to the planning of my son’s 1st birthday. I wanted to have a theme that I hadn’t seen around. I was so excited because there were so many options of different books I could use the theme on such as The Cat In The Hat, The Lorax, and Horton Hears a Who. While I was looking everywhere for decorations I couldn’t seem to find any. 

For the cake I looked up trusty Pinterest for some ideas. My baker was amazing, who by the way was the same baker who did my wedding cake. 

I looked on birthdayexpress.com and that is where I found a party package for a first birthday! I was so excited because my hopes for an awesome birthday party were going to come true (even though it wasn’t even my birthday). Not too long after that I went to the amazing Tarjay and found a bunch of Dr. Seuss things in the dollar section. I was super stoked! My husband and I worked so hard on his invitations and I literally just realized that I didn’t take a picture, oops. 

Well, here are some photos of the party and amazing theme! 

Enjoy! 

 

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Jeremiah and Daddy

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My All Time FAVORITE picture of him

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a $5 pinata pimped out

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yummy chocolate dipped marshmallows

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more desserts

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Love his smile

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Smash cake

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Cake for everyone

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look at his tongue!

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$20 banner

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$1 hat and party hats

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Auntie made his yummy cake pops

When your kid is super photogenic you take lots of pictures 

Yeah, this post doesn’t contain very many words. I’m just obsessed with my son so I took like 30 pictures of him. I posted one on Instagram but thought it’d be too much to post 4 of them consecutively lol. I am not THAT mom lol 

So I’ll just leave these here for your, but mostly my, enjoyment ! ❤️

    
 
xoxo, Jeremiah ! 

Thank heaven for little boys

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Now that the weather is getting nicer my son is able to play outside. This time last year he was still crawling! He is at the age where he is so curious and wants to explore. I am so blessed to have such a wonderful little human! He is the typical boy. He loves hot wheels and playing with balls. He has this personality that just calls your attention and he gets it alright! I think it’s so crazy that he is such a Leo, his astrological sign. He is only a year and a half and you can see his need for all the attention. He knows what he wants and stops at nothing to get it! He is an all around perfect boy in my eyes! He has these beautiful big brown eyes and long black eyelashes! His smile is to die for and hes got these chubby legs and hands (heart eyes).

I am madly in love with him, he is my world! ♥

Windex isn’t just for windows

So we have a sectional. It is probably one of the most comfortable couches I’ve ever sat on! I always get compliments on how comfy they are. I purchased the sectional along with a round cuddler (which I sold due to lack of space) from my sister. The cushions are a tan color and the back of the couch is a dark brown leatherette material. The couch cushions are made of microfiber. I was always so nervous since I had heard they were really hard to clean. I don’t know if those people had ever had a microfiber couch or not but that is quite the opposite. They are so easy to clean! My sister gave me her secret to always keeping them spotless. Guess what it was… Windex! I thought, “Windex on a couch?” Weird right? But seriously, it works wonders! I tell everyone I use Windex! 

As you know, I have a toddler. He is awesome and loves to play with all his toys… and his milk. Milk unfortunately stains so I always end up with some super spotty couches. Even water will stain the fabric, temporarily. 

I took some photos to show how awesome it really works! 

(P.S. all these pictures are unedited to show the real difference!)

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before

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windex and a rag to clean

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wet with windex, haven’t scrubbed it yet

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all done! 🙂

See! It literally takes a couple of minutes an the fabric dries quickly! So if you’re in a hurry and company is coming over just pull out the bottle of Windex and wipe away!

And for those of you wondering, Yes you can throw them in the washer, if you like to struggle putting it back on the cushion!

Adios! 🙂

 

what is marriage?

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Correa Wedding  — July 31st 2015

 

When we think marriage the first thing that comes to mind is a wedding. We get so excited and caught up with having a beautiful wedding that we forget why we are getting married.

marriage

noun mar·riage \ˈmer-ij, ˈma-rij\

Simple Definition of marriage

  • : the relationship that exists between a husband and a wife
  • : a similar relationship between people of the same sex

  • : a ceremony in which two people are married to each other

Full Definition of marriage

  1. 1a (1) :  the state of being united to a person of the opposite sex as husband or wife in a consensual and contractual relationship recognized by law (2) :  the state of being united to a person of the same sex in a relationship like that of a traditional marriage <same-sexmarriage>b :  the mutual relation of married persons :  wedlockc :  the institution whereby individuals are joined in a marriage

  2. 2:  an act of marrying or the rite by which the married status is effected; especially :  the wedding ceremony and attendant festivities or formalities

  3. 3:  an intimate or close union <the marriage of painting and poetry — J. T. Shawcross>

 

First thing’s first, could we possibly remove the term “simple definition of marriage” because marriage is farrrr from simple.

Marriage is nothing like in the movies where you’ll have a happily ever after ending. Truth is that it’s probably not going to be happy most of the time. As a matter of fact, according to apa.org, 40-50 percent of marriages end in divorce. So what is the reason?

I have met many people who have gotten married because they felt as if they had no choice or as if they thought that marriage would miraculously solve all of their problems. Newsflash, it doesn’t. Marriage isn’t just a binding legal document. That’s just a piece of paper, you can shred it and get rid of it but your marriage will still stand.

I’ve only been married for about 6 months now and I know I’m no expert but I am able to recognize the significance of marriage.

Being married is about being devoted to one another first and foremost. Without devotion you’re guaranteed to have a failed marriage, same goes for relationships. People don’t put their all into making sure that they and their spouse are equally happy, that is the first mistake. Second mistake is that people continue to think that they are still single and that they need to look out for themselves before they look out for anyone else. Another newsflash bro, you and your spouse are now equally important.

I get that there are times where divorce is the only option. It may consist of an abusive partner (being abusive doesn’t just mean physically it also means mentally and/or emotionally) or infidelity. If you have exhausted all of your options and it’s still not working, maybe it isn’t meant to be.

As I mentioned before, I’m not a professional marriage counselor or a licensed psychologist but I am able to see what is right and wrong. I believe marriage should be a sacred unity of two people who truly love each other and want to spend the rest of their lives together. If you think marriage is the only way to mend your problems you’re wrong. Going into a marriage with the hopes of someone changing or that you’ll both magically be in love is the wrong option.

I am a strong believer in counseling services. Whether it’s pre-marital, marital, or divorce counseling, they are there to help.

Also, don’t get married because you believe it’s the best for your kids. I know you want to see your children live in a home with both birth parents as a form of security because who doesn’t want to raise their children together? But if you’re not fully committed and ready for a workable marriage, it’ll never work. If your children are being raised in a hostile environment with both parents together, there is no difference if they are being raised by a single parent (a happy single parent if I may add).

My old boss would always tell me that there are three times to be selfish in life, when choosing a job, picking your spouse, and making money. If you need to be selfish, do so.